a sad day in hell

What a cold, rainy, sad, shitty, crappy day from hell! It started out with a funeral. Not just any funeral, but the funeral of our beloved Auntie Marge. My mother’s aunt...only 69... died of an aggressive bone cancer last week and the funeral was today. She was a beautiful fun loving woman with a sassy personality and a huge heart. Her grandchildren sang and played instruments...her children spoke...and everyone wept. It was heartbreaking! I saw her more than most of my extended family and loved her more too. I know she is in heaven with God and Jesus having a party and maybe a sip of champagne (she was too scared to touch the stuff in real life because of alcoholism that ran in her family). She can be proud of her family for such an out pouring of love. It was amazing!

Anyway, her passing has brought the reality of my own grandparent’s mortality. I can't help but ponder what it will be like when they pass. I think about what I will say and really get myself depressed.

Later, I went to my son’s curriculum night at school and I felt like crying while the teacher talked of what they will learn. At that point I switch gears and start thinking about my son’s education. I began to worry about if he will be capable of keeping up with the class. I kept wondering if any of what she was saying applied to us. I leave there feeling quite helpless and I go home and cry a little. Which actually made me feel a little better.

At that point I couldn't take it anymore and I went to bed. Let that day end.

Thank God.

The never ending day...

The never ending day! I am writing this blog not because I have anything great to say, but because I don't have any one to say anything to. 2 out of 3 children just woke up from a quiet rest time and they are quietly watching a little t.v. My neighbors are out with their parents (they are always here) and I just finished the chores I wanted to do today with the exception of the bathroom (Jaclyn is still asleep and I don't want to wake her). These included cleaning the upper and lower floors of my house and setting up a Christmas gift for the in-laws! My husband is gone for 2 1/2 days, this is the 2nd day, and when he's gone life gets pretty dull. Don't get me wrong, my life is not necessarily boring, just redundant. The same crazy kids doing the same crazy things day after day after day... The only new thing that has happened is that Jaclyn is climbing on the coffee table and sitting in the middle like she's the queen of the world and she is cutting 3 teeth! I guess the problem with me today is that I don't know how to appreciate the times when life slows down. We are always on the go...especially in the summer. When life hands you a break, what do you do?

First day of First Gade

Today we have reached a milestone in life...the first day of first grade! The year that your baby is REALLY not a baby any more! Kindergarten is hard they go to school yes, but they come home 2 hours later! Not much different than pre-school...but 1st grade...they stay all day, eat lunch there and have school books! Not at all like Kindergarten! I feel a little sad (the whole baby thing), and VERY nervous! What will this year be like? Will he be liked? Will he succeed? Will he overcome all of his obstacles? I have confidence in the way we have set him up for this year. The special ed classes should help him greatly and his teacher was hand picked by his previous teacher (whom I loved) The future is bright, but there are soooooooooooo many questions.

So far I like his teacher; she seems nice and pretty put together. I can not help but question, question, question. I will have to let go and pray that God will take care of us the way he always does. That is my only option, the year will unfold as it should and we will learn as we go along.

And we're back!

And we're back from our vacation! We really had a good time! On the way there we drove at a good pace. The children were fantastic Jonathan and Julia were able to play together and watch movies. Thank GOD for portable T.V.s, we have a small T.V. that we bring along on vacation up north, not only for the car, but for the cabin as well. It is a life Savor! It took us about 8 or 9 hours to get there, which is much longer than in the past, but things change when there are children involved! We arrived in town and stopped for groceries right away. 3 children in the store after being in the car for 9 hours...you can guess it was a nightmare! We were smart and made a list of what we needed and got everything as quickly as possible! This is part of the lake where the cabin is! It is great! The water is a little low beacause of a drought, but it was still pretty! Here is a picture of Jonathan with the first fish of the trip! He said he was "the best fisherman EVER!!!" and of this trip he was with a grand total of about 10. Not all edible, but still he had fun!

Julia had a great time too. She fish with her Barbie fishing rod and loved every minute of it! She didn't have a real hook on her pole and I felt terrible about it, but she was just swinging her pole around a lot. Having 2 crazy kids not paying attention with a loaded weapon sounds dangerous to me so the little one lost out. There's always next year!

And then there was Jaclie...the baby was sick the entire time! She was a trooper though. But, she hated that winnie the pooh life jacket we made her wear!!! We eventually asked Julia to wear it and Jaclyn wore hers. That worked.

We spent hours on the lake and enjoyed our quiet relaxing time! Uncle Franz is a great man! he put up with us the whole time and really enjoyed the kids! He shares his home every year with us and is about as excited to see us as we are to see him! I'm glad to be able to spend time with him every year Especially because and he's not getting any younger and time is valuable! Our chidren will remember him as an Opa not just an uncle! What a great vacation!

Well, back to life now! Bills, cleaning, laundry. All still here! At least I'm refreshed and ready to go! Speaking of I've I got to get back to it!
See ya!

Vacation!

I am off! I will go to sleep now and when I get up we will leave...thank you GOD!!!

My daughters performance went very well. She was happy and didn't get spooked by all of the people. Good for her! Jonathan, however, was not so lucky. He went out there and danced and did great until he fell. Poor little guy. He didn't get hurt, but his embarassment made him cry. He made my heart break so I went on the dance floor, calmed him down and he was able to finish the dance...with a smile:) Good for him! Look at them aren't they adorable! I could eat them both!
I am sooooooooooo tired now ao I am going to bed.
Good night!

The picture test

Hey I'm trying this picture thing! This is my family! Joe, Julia, Jonathan and Jaclyn! Aren't they great! Sitting with thier #1 dad and loving every minute of it.

Today has been a good day, I am still trying to pack and get things together for our trip. I am also trying to clean. I am almost done with the babies room and I am finished with the two boneheads room. On to my room and the rest of the house! Yeah for me!


My baby is mastering shaking her head NO! I think it is so cute, but I know when she is done I will pay for her new trick! So far she has been pretty willing to do anything and now she has the power! Let's hope she never learns that she has a choice!
Julia's first dance is tomorrow! I'm looking foward to it! She is still a novice, but in time she will be dragging the boy she's dancing with around! It never changes! I' ll write tomorrow and let you know how it turns out! Maybe I will have pictures!!!! See ya!

messy, messy, messy

My house is a mess and I don't want to do anything about it! I am so tired that the idea of cleaning makes me cringe! I just want to sit around all day and watch my kids and TV all day! Sadly that is a pipe dream. I have to do something otherwise someone is going to call DCFS or something on me. No it's not that bad, but...


We go on vacation soon and I can't wait. We will be in a little cabin next to a lake. I can't wait to be looking out the big picture window out onto the lake seeing my children fish with their dad. BEAUTIFUL!!! Maybe I will put some pictures on the blog, if I can figure out how! We will have to leave on Tuesday instead of Monday because we are having our crawlspace cemented. YEAH! Finally something that will actually make our house better is being done! We borrowed the money for it, but it will definitely be worth every penny!!! It will give us more storage and maybe a playroom??? We'll see how clean it turns out to be! As for our vacation, we will just come back a day later. That will give us at least a week. I have to get ready and start packing. The idea of packing up three children scares me, but it has to get done! I need to make sure I don't go overboard, that is the hard part! My goal is 2 bags, one for the kids ans one for us...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Luck to me!

I had better get cleaning... See ya!